It's almost the weekend!

Wow, this week has really flown by! First for the biggest news, Elena is starting a MDO program starting Tuesday. It's a hard decision for me to make and I am happy and sad to see her starting. It makes me sad, and I feel bad, she seems so young, but I know she will love it and it will be better for her in the long run. I can't even imagine how difficult it is for working moms who have to take their 6 weeks old babies into daycare or something, I've been so blessed to take both of my children to work with me through pretty much the first year. It enabled me to see most of their firsts. With her being in the MDO program it will allow me to really bust my hump to get lots of work done while she's gone, so I can spend more time with her at work when she's with me. I've gotten so behind at work, and this will help me to catch up. Her benefits will be kids her age to play with, and she will be doing arts and crafts and music and bible study. She'll especially love the kids. She loves kids and doesn't get to be around that many, so I know she'll have fun. We went to orientation today and I had to leave her with the teachers and go to orientation and when I came back, she didn't even care that I was back, she was having so much fun with the toys and a little girl and boy that were there. I know I'm making the right decision, but wow, this really hurts!!!

This morning we went to First TN bank to see Gnash, the Predators mascot and get free donuts. So Jackson got a donut, and then he was all excited to see Gnash, until we made a joke that Gnash might take his donut, so be careful. Well then of course he didn't want to see him, so we told him we were just joking and that he wouldn't take it, lol. I got some pics of him and Elena with him. I need to post them. Elena looked so cute and she really liked Gnash.

Jackson is doing good. He's such a sweet and smart boy, gosh I just totally adore that kid! Sunday I'm taking him to see Thomas the train. I'm going to swelter in the heat, I must really love that kid, lol.

Elena is cruising now and standing on her own for seconds at a time. She will be walking before we know it. Her eating is really annoying right now. She doesn't want baby food for the most part and she spits food out which drives us nuts. My little baby is growing up.....sigh. This time is really flying by.

Oh, I also booked Jackson and Elena's birthday at Discover Center this week. I can't wait and neither can Jackson. He keeps thinking his birthday is tomorrow. lol I hope lots of our friends are able to make it. Well, I have a nice bubble bath and glass of wine waiting for me. Will update more soon.

Doing lots of thinking

Well I've been doing lots of thinking and I think I really need a change in my life. I have so many things I need to change and I am hoping if I start slowly, things will be better. I will be happier and healthier I hope. It's really tough, because I am very critical of myself, so personally I think I should change everything, but I'm going to take baby steps because if I didn't it would be too overwhelming and things would just stay the same or get worse.

I'd like to lose some weight, start working out, eat healthier, be more positive and less negative, nurture myself and some of my relationships, I could go on and on, but we're going to start with some of these and just take them step by step. For a while I was doing good on the positive note, but lately, it's been long cast aside. I want to start liking myself more. I am normally a very negative person, and I definitely have a warped sense of reality, but I am going to do my best to try to change myself and my perceptions. Wish me luck, it's not gonna be easy!

I'm even thinking about going to church maybe. This would be a big step for me. I haven't been since I was a teenager, yikes, that's a long time!!! I don't know, I just have a void in my life and I keep trying to fill it to no avail, maybe God can help me with this. I have no idea where I would go. I know if I do pick a church, I would like a laid back church, not one of those big fancy ones where it all becomes about impressing others or just going on holidays, I want a good old fashioned friendly church.

Well, Elena is starting to feel better, I just wish she was sleeping better. She's been waking a lot in the middle of the night. She's a real sweetheart with a mind of her own. I can't believe she's 8 months old. She's growing so much and I was thinking tonight about how torn I am about the nursing thing. I am looking forward to weaning her, but I will also really miss it. She's my last baby and it's gonna be hard. I just can't believe how quickly time is flying by. She's going to be one before I know it. sigh.... It's hard letting them grow up, but such a wonderful adventure too. I can't wait to see both of the kids grow and change and become hopefully wonderful adults. I just want to at least live long enough to see the get married and have babies. I guess it's silly, but I really want to be a grandma, just not too quickly. lol.

Company's gone

Well the visit with the inlaws went well. They had a good time with the kids, although I feel bad when Jackson gets ignored or not as much attention as Elena. I know she's a baby and will get lots of attention, but the Mom in me hates to see my little boy get his feelings hurt. He's such a sensitive boy, gets that from me sadly enough. It really is tough to see how much he is like me. I hope he doesn't ever have the issues I do.

Anyway, the visit went well. We went to their hotel and swam and had fun. They came to the house to visit and play. It was a nice little visit and I hope they can come back soon.

Sunday we went to a friend's house so John could do some pics of her newborn. He was very cute and we stayed for dinner. He got some good pics, but you know how hard it is to do pics sometimes, lots of crying and fits. Overall still went pretty good though.

Finally updating

Well, since I have last updated, Jackson's eating is getting better. I wouldn't say it's fixed, but at least he's showing signs of improvement. It's a long slow process, and we're just going to take baby steps. I'm so glad to see him finally eating and I actually think he's growing a little. Woo hoo!!!

Elena is 8 months old! Gosh, I can hardly believe it. My little girl is getting closer to being a toddler. She's crawling really well and she absolutely loves pulling up. She will walk a little but only with you holding her hands. She eats pretty well, which is awesome since Jackson as you know never has, except she still doesn't like her fruits. I can't wait until she can eat table foods. I guess we should start soon. She loves those little puffs. She really is a great baby. I really am blessed to have two adorable and sweet little kids.

Well, the a/c at the trophy shop went out and yeah, we get to pay for it instead of our landlord. grrr. They also took their sweet time and we went without air for over a day. Then wouldn't you know it like a day or two later, our air at the house is acting weird. GRRR!!! We're going to try to hold off fo a bit if we can.

I also did something, which I have no idea, to my knee and it hurts really bad. I think I'm ready for this day to be over. Tomorrow I have a baby shower to go to, and Friday my in-laws will be in town. Sunday I'm going to visit a friend's new baby that John is taking pics of.

Our weekend

We've decided to take a tougher approach to Jackson's eating and so far it's going better than I expected it would. The first night was rough, he was throwing lots of fits and went to bed hungry because he didn't want to eat what I had made for dinner. Then we had a few good days. I hope he keeps it up. He's so little and it breaks my heart to see him go to bed hungry, but he's got to live off more than just biscuits and grape water. Cross your fingers because if this doesn't work, we're off to the nutritionist. Thank God Elena is a MUCH better eater, although she's still not crazy about fruit, but she does like her veggies. A girl after my own heart.

We went to Dickson this weekend to see my family and went to the pool. Jackson has been more afraid of the water this year than last year. Kids, you just never know how much they can change from one minute to the next. Elena loves the water though. We got her in her baby float and she had a blast! I'll have to get hubby to help me load some photos on here. She looked so cute! I tried to stay in the water most of the time, I hate being in a bathing suit. It's so traumatic and hubby just doesn't understand. Overall it was a nice visit, though I get tired of hearing how much Mom wants to see us and then it seems like she doesn't spend time with us. Oh well, my own little family ( Elena, Jackson, John and me) enjoyed our time with each other. I really love my family and the fact that I am creating the sort of family I always wanted as a kid.

Sunday we didn't do much. Sat at home most of the day, went into town for a bit and John is working all day. Yuck! Wish he were home with us, but he's got some catching up to do at work. I hope this week goes smoothly.