Square peg in a round hole

Why do I keep trying to shove a square peg in a round hole? Obviously it doesn't fit, so why do I keep trying???

What now???

I am so tired of getting sick. I am sick at least once a month every month and it has been that way for the past couple of years. It's taking a toll on me. Yesterday I felt miserable, but thought maybe it was too much drinking the night before, but now, I realize it's something else. I was so sick yesterday, had some vomitting and fever and chills, my throat and ears were bugging me. I just felt awful. Somy throat is still a mess but at least the fever broke and I just feel nauseaus, but now my head feels like a truck drove through it. It hurts in my chest and back when I walk, along with the constant throbbing in my head. On top of that I finally started my period so I've got some nice cramps to go along with everything else. woo hoo!!! I'm just so sick of everything and it seems no matter what I do to make things better, it just doesn't. Why am I still trying????

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It just isn't working and it sucks! I'll spare the details, who really wants to read a bunch of crap, but something's gotta give.

Our little scare

The past couple of weeks, every so often, Jackson would complain that his side hurt or his back or head. He's also been having a hard time going to bed, saying he's scared, etc. So we weren't quite sure if the "pains" he was having were real or just to give him the excuse to stay up with us, as the pain typically was at bedtime. Thursday night Jackson couldn't sleep and came to us crying. He said his tummy hurt. He couldn't get comfortable enough to sleep and pointed to where his side hurted. He even came to me with tears in his eyes asking me to please help his tummy stop hurting. It absolutely broke my heart. We called the on-call dr, and I was just to the point of taking him to the ER when she called back and told us it didn't sound like he needed to go, but bring him in to office in the morning. So we did. I was shocked at the problem-constipation! The boy goes like 6 times a day! Anyway, maybe he just got a little backed from being sick earlier in the week. Simple solution is Miralax, great now both kids are on it. The only other thing it could possibly be is his intestines might be kinking up and then get untwisted. It's very rare so she doesn't think that's it, but if it was, then we would need to go to Vanderbilt Children's hospital WHILE he's in pain, so they can do the tests, they can't do it if he's not having the pains. So, I'm hoping the Miralax does the trick and no more pains for him. It's really awful watching your kids crying in pain asking for help and you feeling like you can't do anything about it.

Frustrated

Yesterday was such a horrible day. Nothing bad really happened, it just was a very frustrating day for me. It started good, then progressively got worse. Hubby was in a bad mood, I got in a bad mood, customers driving me crazy, PMS'ing like a raving lunatic, P.S. Jacy, I might be able to give you a good run for the money on the PMS bitchiness.

We were supposed to do family pictures, yet again, I am STILL waiting for a family picture of the 4 of us. You would think with a photographer hubby I would have a plethora of photos, which yes I do, but not of the 4 of us. grrr Something always comes up. Last night hubby had to work late. Work's been a little crazy, even though this week was supposed to be calm. Jackson was sick and I had to stay home with him a part-time and work with him part-time, so we're a bit behind.

I hope this little slump gets over quickly because right now, I am just so frustrated at how everything is going. I don't feel like getting into details, everything is just driving me crazy.

TGIF

Thank goodness it's Friday! Today was a busy day, and a difficult one at that. We got the big order out that we needed to, and it actually looks like we shouldn't have to work this weekend. Yay! I'm in a crappy mood. I don't know, maybe it's just the way the day went, etc. I hope I can just sleep it off tonight.

We were supposed to have a date night tonight. I was very excited, even though we probably would have just done dinner and a movie, and the sitter could only come for 3 hours, it still would have been nice. Fortunately, she should be able to watch the kids tomorrow, so we may still have a date night. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Tomorrow we're supposed to be meeting friends for a playdate and then Kung Fu Panda. Should be fun, but I hope Elena behaves. The last time she went to a movie, she was an infant.

The new school is going pretty well for the kids. Still have a few snags, but hopefully we will work through them.

Today was Jenna's birthday. I didn't know her near as well as I wish I had, but she is missed. She came to me in a dream a few nights ago. It was very short and she gave a baby ( what I thought was Will) to Chandra to raise. Well, a few days later, guess who I find out is pregnant? Chandra! Maybe she's coming to me in dreams, maybe it's just an overactive imagination? I don't know. I just think it's really cool. She came to me one other time to let me know, that she is happy in Heaven and looking down on all of her loved ones. Jenna, I hope you are partying in Heaven, on your party bus, drinking a big margarita, and eating fried pickles. There'll never be another like you!!

A good week

Well, another week has quickly gone by. Work has been busy and it's been pretty nice though that we have carpooled almost all week. Especially nice with gas prices being so high, plus that means that John has been home more. I like that.

This week though we are going to be super busy and will have to work probably lots of overtime. yuck. Oh well, it's better than not having anything to do and no business.

Saturday morning I took the kids shopping while John did some much needed yard work. Then it was off to meet Tanya and Abby at the Pottery place to make Father's day gifts. We've already done the handprints and such, and hubby doesn't drink coffee so I felt like a mug was useless, but a margarita glass, would be beneficial. Ole! So we made a World's Best Daddy margarita glass. Jackson picked out the colors and helped to paint it, then Elena added her own little personal dash to it. It will be a very unique looking glass, but it will be a work of love. Jackson kept trying to pick out robots, motorcycles and lizards for John's gift. Umm don't think so. I did reward Jackson for his good behavior by letting him paint a lizard. The kids both were very good I was pleasantly surprised as Elena was a beast the last time we took them.

Then it was off to lunch, which was nice but noisy with the kids. Then a CVS run, they're never good in there, well at least not Elena. Then I took the kids home, hit up Kohl's for some more Father's Day stuff, and few pieces of clothing for me. Yippee! I really needed some stuff. Then I was able to actually get in a good workout, nice since I've been so busy I haven't been able to get to the gym, then hit a couple more stores and home. A long busy day indeed.

Sunday we went to the Splash Pad. Missed Tanya and Abby, and Lisha and Riley had to bail too, so missed them. Fortunately Margie, Todd and Joshua showed up and Jackson was super happy to see his bud. Elena had a good time too, plus no head on the pavement this time, although poor little Leny fell and scraped her knee pretty good. Poor little girl, but Jackson being the good brother he is, kissed it to make it better, he's so sweet to her! Oh, and at lunch Saturday he said he wants to marry his sister. How sweet and twisted is that???? lol We don't live in Kentucky you know? Just kidding for any of you who live in or come from Kentucky.

After the splash pad, we got some lunch, went to the lake, and then home to play. A long nice family weekend.

Exhausted

I am just so drained right now. I'm hoping to make it to bed a little early tonight. It's been a big week. Work has been kicking my butt this week and John took off Wednesday and Thursday so he could meet his Dad at Reelfoot Lake with Jackson. It was a little male bonding time hiking in the woods and I'm glad that he got to take a little break since he's been working so hard the past few months. Thursday the men came back and John's dad stayed with us and Friday he got a hotel room so the kids could go swimming. I opted to go to the movies with the girls and saw Sex and the City. It was a much deserved break and the movie was pretty good.

Saturday, we met John's dad for breakfast and then he was headed back to Texas. It was a nice little trip and the kids had a blast with him. He bought them a little wavy noodle sprinkler that they really liked and Jackson always loves company, so he was a very happy camper. Call me crazy, but I do wish my in-laws lived closer. The kids adore them, and they have enough respect to keep their distance and not butt in too much. A good thing.

Elena's first week at her new school went pretty well, I kept Jackson out this week since he would only have gone a day or so, so his first week starts tomorrow and I hope he does well. I don't worry much about Elena, she doesn't scare easily, and she is usually pretty okay wherever she goes. She's a tough little girl and fairly easy going so she's nothing to worry about. Jackson on the other hand is more like me. He's so sensitive and he is shy until he gets comfortable with his surroundings. I hope he makes friends early and doesn't let things bother him too much. He is just so quick to throw a fit and cry , etc. I hope this phase ends quickly.

So our company left Saturday and we had to go to work for a little while, then it was off to the Splash Pad. The kids had a great time other than when they got knocked to the ground. Elena got bulldozed twice and both hit their heads on the concrete. I really wish they could have made that out of something softer for the kids, or at the least that the bigger kids would try to look where they are going and be careful around the smaller ones. Elena got knocked down twice by the same kid. I had a little talk with him the second time he did it.

Sunday we went to the zoo. It was a good time, but gosh it was hot! Of course I know it will only get hotter, but it was very warm to be lugging around two kids in the wagon. I am so tired from this week and my body is just drained. With all the work I've had to do, the fun activities, the kids, the company, and I've been battling some sort of infection or allergies, that is totally kicking my butt, makes for an exhausting week.