Square peg in a round hole

Why do I keep trying to shove a square peg in a round hole? Obviously it doesn't fit, so why do I keep trying???

What now???

I am so tired of getting sick. I am sick at least once a month every month and it has been that way for the past couple of years. It's taking a toll on me. Yesterday I felt miserable, but thought maybe it was too much drinking the night before, but now, I realize it's something else. I was so sick yesterday, had some vomitting and fever and chills, my throat and ears were bugging me. I just felt awful. Somy throat is still a mess but at least the fever broke and I just feel nauseaus, but now my head feels like a truck drove through it. It hurts in my chest and back when I walk, along with the constant throbbing in my head. On top of that I finally started my period so I've got some nice cramps to go along with everything else. woo hoo!!! I'm just so sick of everything and it seems no matter what I do to make things better, it just doesn't. Why am I still trying????

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It just isn't working and it sucks! I'll spare the details, who really wants to read a bunch of crap, but something's gotta give.

Our little scare

The past couple of weeks, every so often, Jackson would complain that his side hurt or his back or head. He's also been having a hard time going to bed, saying he's scared, etc. So we weren't quite sure if the "pains" he was having were real or just to give him the excuse to stay up with us, as the pain typically was at bedtime. Thursday night Jackson couldn't sleep and came to us crying. He said his tummy hurt. He couldn't get comfortable enough to sleep and pointed to where his side hurted. He even came to me with tears in his eyes asking me to please help his tummy stop hurting. It absolutely broke my heart. We called the on-call dr, and I was just to the point of taking him to the ER when she called back and told us it didn't sound like he needed to go, but bring him in to office in the morning. So we did. I was shocked at the problem-constipation! The boy goes like 6 times a day! Anyway, maybe he just got a little backed from being sick earlier in the week. Simple solution is Miralax, great now both kids are on it. The only other thing it could possibly be is his intestines might be kinking up and then get untwisted. It's very rare so she doesn't think that's it, but if it was, then we would need to go to Vanderbilt Children's hospital WHILE he's in pain, so they can do the tests, they can't do it if he's not having the pains. So, I'm hoping the Miralax does the trick and no more pains for him. It's really awful watching your kids crying in pain asking for help and you feeling like you can't do anything about it.

Frustrated

Yesterday was such a horrible day. Nothing bad really happened, it just was a very frustrating day for me. It started good, then progressively got worse. Hubby was in a bad mood, I got in a bad mood, customers driving me crazy, PMS'ing like a raving lunatic, P.S. Jacy, I might be able to give you a good run for the money on the PMS bitchiness.

We were supposed to do family pictures, yet again, I am STILL waiting for a family picture of the 4 of us. You would think with a photographer hubby I would have a plethora of photos, which yes I do, but not of the 4 of us. grrr Something always comes up. Last night hubby had to work late. Work's been a little crazy, even though this week was supposed to be calm. Jackson was sick and I had to stay home with him a part-time and work with him part-time, so we're a bit behind.

I hope this little slump gets over quickly because right now, I am just so frustrated at how everything is going. I don't feel like getting into details, everything is just driving me crazy.